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[ fushiguro says nothing for a moment. but then he closes the distance between them, raising a hand to hit itadori on the head, though it's softer than when he hits him when itadori does something annoying or stupid or stupidly annoying. he keeps that hand there for a moment before dropping it to his side. ]

Alright. [ no it's not, but he understands what itadori is doing ]

If... [ a longer pause as he tries to figure out what to say ] If you need anything... [ he trails off here, but the offer is there ]

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[ there is a warm, kind smile that spreads over his face in response to that concern. he appreciates it. he really, deeply, and truly does. but there's just something that holds him back from relying too deeply on him. or, rather, it's not even relying on him... he trusts fushiguro and knows he'd cover his back for things, but he still doesn't want to burden him too much. especially since fushiguro was going through plenty with adjusting to this place, too. ]

You've already helped me a lot. I appreciate it.

[ he is grateful for everything he's been given. truly. and he does consider fushiguro to be his friend. probably even the closest friend he's had so far, considering what they've been through together. but it was more complicated than simple friendship, something between a casual friend and a comrade in arms. he could have fun with him, fool around with him, enjoy their time together and he's seen fushiguro warm up to things, but itadori himself kept a small divide between them.

was it to protect fushiguro or himself? probably the former and probably from himself. he doesn't have that same excuse here, so to speak, but it didn't mean that the possibility of something happening wasn't there. ]

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[ itadori's smile. fushiguro has come to have mixed feelings about it. normally it's something that should be warm and make him feel better, but there are times where he sees it and all he can think about is seeing it in the rain and all the red-- he can't ask for the honesty he wants from itadori, when he's holding onto such a big secret, that itadori becoming sukuna's vessel is what triggered all this events. how can he tell itadori to be honest when he can't do the same for him? ]

Hm... the same to you. [ a pause ] We... are friends, right?

[ there's a slight hesitancy there. it's strange, having someone that he could consider a friend. fushiguro has seen that he could open up around itadori, talk to him, maybe even have fun. while itadori annoys him from time to time, if he were to go away again, well, fushiguro would kill him.

after all, it was his selfish desire that got gojou to work to get his life spared. he wants itadori to keep living his life. ]

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[ if they could both be honest with one another about things, it would come to light that they both understood that what he did triggered the events to start escalating. the fact that he's acknowledge it with sukuna and asked him not to tell fushiguro... that it was a massive fear of his, that fushiguro would find out and--

that question strikes him hard. his eyes widen a bit at being asked it, especially so hesitant from fushiguro. the boy he considered to be confident and, more or less, collected. sure, he had a temper and did some rash things, but overall, fushiguro was the grounding force between the two of them. so hearing this... there's almost a pang of guilt and he swallows, smile faltering a bit. his head drops down and he gives a nod. ]

We are. You're one of the people that's closest to me.

[ this isn't a lie. unfortunately, there are still things that he would talk to nanami or gojo over fushiguro because of what they'd experienced together and what they know. things that he cannot deny from having happened. because fushiguro's his friend, he doesn't want to say all the things inside. truth is, he's never had anyone that he's relied on, so he doesn't know how to do it. he has to protect others, that's what he knows. ]

What made you ask that?

[ he... has to know. if fushiguro will tell him. ]

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[ he has trust in nobara, confidence in her being able to keep this secret. if pressed, he would definitely say that she was a friend too. someone who annoyed him with all her extra needs and wants, but also someone that would go along with it. she understands what he's trying to do. she understands what it's like to have lost him once already.

his own head drops down and silence fills the space for longer than it should. it's weakness, what he's showing him, and there's something telling him that he shouldn't, that they'll go back home and he'll have to remember that there's a time limit for how long they can be. fushiguro understands that friends are people you want around for a long time, but does-- ]

I... [ he starts, closing his mouth. then he lifts his head back up so he can look at itadori properly ] I never had many before. [ or any really, but itadori doesn't need to know that just yet ]

I wanted to be sure. You're one of the people closest to me too.

[ he can't give full honesty, not yet. but this... this should be a good start for now. ]