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[cursedappetite]

Nothing comes to mind.

[ he reaffirms what he said for fushiguro ]

[blessedshadows]

[ looks in his face for a moment before pulling away a bit ]

Nanami-san looked it up. What happened to you happens when someone expends a lot of Manna.

[cursedappetite]

[ that's... curious ]

I didn't do anything special, though. You seem fine and we've been doing the same amount of things.

[blessedshadows]

I tried to help you generate more Manna while you slept.

[ yeah he's pissed at things not you now ]

[cursedappetite]

I meant before I slept. Unless you've got other people you've made Manna with?

[ he's not implying anything bad, but almost hopes that it means fushiguro has more friends? hopefully? maybe?? ]

[blessedshadows]

It's been pretty much just you.

[ i already have three friends: you, nobara, and doge. that's enough ]

[cursedappetite]

[ what about your hand?? ]

Then why was it only me that fell asleep?

[blessedshadows]

... I don't know.

[ that hand is for holding itadori's. which is what it's doing again now ]

[cursedappetite]

[ when he feels the hand again, he looks down at their hands clasped together and stares. it might seem he's derailing this conversation, but he's actually got reason behind it ]

You were with me like this the whole time?

[ indicating their proximity and the hand holding and everything ]

[blessedshadows]

I was.

[ fuck you fushiguro and your pauses ]

I thought... I could help.

[cursedappetite]

I woke up, right?

[ he squeezes his hand and closes his eyes, relaxing against the bed. but he doesn't stop talking so that fushiguro doesn't have to panic that he's going back to sleep ]

It might be because I've been holding back.

[ he wants to wait to see how he responds to this ]

[blessedshadows]

--Holding back on what?

[ not letting go again. this hand is his forever ]

[cursedappetite]

[ oh dear, whatever will he do ]

On letting you close. [ then, a bit quieter ] I'm afraid to lose you.

[blessedshadows]

You--?

[ a bit angrily ] Why are you afraid? [ he's the one who should be afraid ]

[cursedappetite]

[ even if he has his eyes closed, he tilts his head to the side to not face fushiguro ]

I don't want to say it.

[blessedshadows]

[ i swear to fucking god itadori yuji i will pee in your cereal ]

Why not?

[cursedappetite]

[ HOW ABOUT NO ]

You'd probably end up hating me.

[blessedshadows]

[ i'm about ready to hate you right now ]

I wouldn't.

[cursedappetite]

[ that's mean ]

I don't know about that.

[blessedshadows]

If I didn’t hate you after that stunt you pulled with Gojou and Kugisaki, then I probably won’t.

[ formation b ]

[cursedappetite]

It's the one thing I can't say to you.

[ look, that whole thing was them being idiots. this is much more serious of a matter. ]

[blessedshadows]

[ he frowns hard at him, his hold on itadori's hand growing tighter ]

Itadori... I can't hate you.

[ he says that with an air of finality. that no matter what, he will never hate him ]

[cursedappetite]

...I still can't say it.

[ he isn't the only one holding a secret here. but even if fushiguro might not hate him, there's still other negative results that could come about ]

[blessedshadows]

[ he can't make itadori speak, no matter how much he wants to. he wonders what itadori is doing, what he might think might make fushiguro hate him. short of kicking dogs, there isn't much...

for now, what he does is just lightly shove at itadori's leg ]

Move over.

[cursedappetite]

[ itadori is a bit surprised that fushiguro is dropping it. for now, at least. the command does surprise him, but he shifts just a bit to give fushiguro a bit more room ]